Floyd is gaining strength. He is coughing less, but when he coughs it is still deep and congested. We continue to pray for complete healing from the 3 infections he is battling. The doctor does feel that there is improvement and Floyd has been more alert and active with his left arm again. This is really good but also challenging for the nursing staff and therapists. It makes their jobs so much more difficult. But they are awesome! They are to be commended for their patience and care. I pray often for them to be blessed. I’m very grateful for them!
As I watch Floyd in this condition, I get worried about him. I've heard the saying that "worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere." I've actually always like rocking chairs. :) But I don't want to be burdened with worries.
I've been reflecting on this scripture - "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about what you need, and thank Him for all He has done." Philippians 4:6 NLT
God has done so much these last few months. I'm so very grateful for that. I choose to commit the present needs to Him. I know He's aware of them - and He has a plan. He's more concerned about Floyd than I am.
I look to Him, and I trust Him. Come, Lord Jesus, and touch Floyd!
From the very first day of this journey, I've felt that God has asked me to trust Him. With His help, I've done that. The steps of trust have been big - facing issues of life and death.
But the issues we're facing now of not knowing what's ahead and Floyd feeling the frustration of his condition - these seem even harder to bear. I am feeling that God is calling me to even greater, deeper levels of trust.
As I've been praying, I've realized afresh that I can embrace this kind of trust because of who God is. I wrote out this graft while thinking about that.
T - one who tries, who tackles a task (works, does the utmost)
R - one who is reliable (dependable, steady)
U - one who is unwavering, unfailing (solid, constant, a rock)
S - one who is sure (faithful, doesn't give up)
T - one who is true (accurate, honest)
There has to be a good reason to trust - and God is trustworthy for thousands of reasons. He is so worthy of my/our trust!!
"The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, my stronghold." Psalm 18:2
"Truly He is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken." Psalm 62:6
"Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." Psalm 9:10
"When I am afraid, I put my trust in you." Psalm 56:3
There are so, so many verses about how trustworthy He is. I read through dozens and dozens of them. It built up my faith, my trust, my absolute dependence upon Him. It renewed hope in my heart.
He is firm, solid, secure - worthy of my absolute trust. I am choosing to trust Him more deeply as we face the new challenges.
"Yet I am confident I will see the Lord's goodness while I am here in the land of the living." Psalm 27:13
In the midst of so many ups and downs in Floyd's illness, I see the goodness of the Lord all around me. Even on the hardest of days, I am aware of His presence and His care. He is so faithful.
"Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." verse 14
I continue to wait - to see what God has in store. I ask His help daily to be brave and courageous. I can't change anything on my own, so I wait as patiently as I can. Again, He is faithful to help me.
As I've been meditating on God's faithfulness so many, many verses that affirm how good and faithful He is come to mind!
"Your faithfulness endures to all generations." Psalm 119:90
"I am with you always, even to the end of the age." Matthew 28:20
He is present, even if we don't "feel" Him. His faithfulness is not dependent on my feelings. He doesn't have "bad" days. He is never too tired to listen, nor too busy to hear.
I started to think about my faithfulness. I wondered how I was measuring up! My prayers started to change.
There's not a lot I can do right now to change our circumstances......but I can try to be faithful to the things God has for me to do. I need to keep my eyes on Him. I need to continue to trust Him. I need to take care of myself and persevere on this unexpected journey.
Proverbs 24:10 "If you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small."
I often feel like my strength is small. I keep asking the Lord to increase my strength on this journey. I don't know how this journey will end! But I'm asking God to help me make it all the way, to help me be faithful.