Last weekend my visit with Floyd was one of my best visits in recent times. He was very attentive and responsive. I read some emails of encouragement that I had gotten, and he actually cried. I can't imagine how hard this journey must be for him. He seems to "soak up" the affirmation and encouragement. I keep trying to tell him how much he is loved, how his ministry continues, and how many people are praying for him. I pray for strength and grace for his heart - and for the comfort of the Holy Spirit.
As I prepared for surgery last week, I was caught by surprise when I woke up a couple nights in the middle of the night with anxiety. I didn't realize that was there!
It gave me the opportunity to take my cares, my concerns, my worries to the Lord.....especially ones I didn't know about until they woke me. I thought of the verse from Psalm 63:6:
"I lie awake thinking of You, meditating on You through the night."
As I lay in bed meditating on His goodness, His faithfulness, His love and care, His grace, His comfort......the anxieties that had come to the surface evaporated in His presence. I was grateful to have been able to give them to Him so that I didn’t carry them with me to the surgery!
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you." 1 Peter 5:7
"Do not be anxious about anything." Philippians 4:16
"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Because You have been my help, therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice." Psalm 63:7
"The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
"I sought the Lord, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4
"When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy." Psalm 94:19
"May the Lord of peace Himself give you peace at all times and in every way." 2 Thessalonians 3:16
"When I am afraid, I put my trust in You." Psalm 56:3
"Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you: He will never let the righteous be shaken." Psalm 55:22
As I started looking at verses about His help when anxious, I found sooo many! I'm so grateful for His abundant promises to help us. I'm standing on them - speaking them out if anxiety pops its head up.
My surgery on Tuesday went well. It was long and complicated but the surgeon is happy with the result. Now I am trying to rest and recover so that I can go home tomorrow. I am holding onto the Lord’s promises as I battle through the pain and nausea from the surgery. I know He will help me each step of the way, He has been so faithful and He will continue to hold my hand.