It’s been a while since I posted anything. I have had a rough time of weakness and no energy during and after my radiation treatment. I’m still recovering but grateful that I am beginning to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I'm praying that that light keeps shining brightly!!
During these long days, there were 3 thoughts that stayed firmly and clearly in my heart and mind. The first is "carrying." I don't know how to describe it - but I was so aware that I was being carried by the Lord. I could almost feel His presence, with me - knowing I was being carried.
"I have made you and I will carry you. I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4
The second thought was being sheltered by the wings of the Lord. About 4 1/2 years ago I shared a photo of a momma bird sheltering her 2 young ones under her wings. This picture came back into my mind one night in the hospital. I vividly sensed the shelter of the Lord's wings! I have used the photo again above.
"I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.' Surely He will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge, His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart." Psalm 91:2-4
The 3rd word was "peace." In the midst of a lot of chaos, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. A peace that nothing/no one can give but the Lord. A peace that passes understanding. A peace that closed off the world around me, and tucked me into those protective wings of love and care.
"The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Psalm 34:14
Again and again I've been encouraged by these words - been ministered to by God's love and care. He is so faithful, and knows just what we need.
This coming week has two days that are special to me. The first is Monday, May 29 - it marks 2 years from when Floyd went to be with Jesus. It's a bittersweet day. I'm so grateful that Floyd is no longer suffering, but I do continue to miss him - especially in times like my recent treatment. I miss his love and support. My family and friends were very supportive, but it's not the same as my dear gentle giant.
I’m so grateful that the Lord has been so faithful in bringing healing to my heart during these 2 years. The grief isn't gone, but it's much "lighter" than it was in the beginning. I know that's because of God's healing hand.
The second special day is Friday, June 2. It would have been our 56th wedding anniversary. The love in my heart for Floyd and for our special days didn't stop when he passed away. If anything, these days are even more special to me. I'm grateful for every year we had together - and my heart still celebrates as the years pass on by.
"Be cheerful with joyous celebration in every season of life. Let your joy overflow!" Philippians 4:4 TPT
"A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance." Ecclesiastes 3:4
"This is the day which the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24
I'm grateful for these days coming up - joy and sadness mixed together......and God's goodness is the cherry on top!