Well, my chemo journey has begun and after a reasonably good first day, the horrible side affects hit like a lightning bolt with the whole range of symptoms all at once. I have been absolutely flattened.
I have sweet friends that have been caring for me, but I'm extremely weak.
Meanwhile, Floyd has been in good spirits the last few days after having been mostly agitated and sad the few days before that.
One of the nurses told two of the carers that the nurses had gathered around Floyd's bed to pray for him. She had come in a little late and noticed that Floyd was crying as they prayed for him. When they finished, he looked at each one with a smile of gratitude. I can't tell you how blessed I was to hear that story!
When the Lord spoke to my heart that I needed to "release" Floyd into His hands in this season and concentrate on caring for myself, it was hard to let go. I love and care for him so much and I was concerned about how things would go. This sweet story showed me how awesome and broad the Lord's reach is to watch out for my husband. I'm so thankful for the wonderful team at the hospital who care for him. May He bless them!
As I am going through these awful side effects of chemo, and thinking that it was never quite this bad the first time, some friends have suggested that maybe my body is a bit weakened from the stress of this past year. And as I think about that there's a scripture that keeps floating through my mind:
"But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in His wings. And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture." Malachi 4:2
I think I'm attracted to that calf leaping with joy! :) I'm longing for that healing touch. And I have been leaning deeper into God's strength, grace, and faithfulness!
"Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds." Psalm 36:5
There's no end to His faithfulness!