Floyd has had a good few days - resting, peaceful, sleeping.
I woke up on Tuesday to clumps of hair falling out. So I took scissors to it to "chop" it off......haven't you wanted to do that when you were a kid?! :) Then on Wednesday the bald look returned as I had my head shaved. It's not my favorite look, but I learned last time that at least I have a nice shaped head!
In the midst of a really hard first round of chemo, I had some sweet moments with the Lord. I wanted to share one of them with you that was so special to me.
On one of the days I was so sick, feeling very alone, missing Floyd and concerned for him - I could barely focus my thoughts. I was so miserable. I told the Lord it was the most alone I've ever felt in my whole life. In less than a heartbeat, I instantly felt His sweet, comforting presence envelop me!
And then a short while later, a friend came over. She said she had been praying for me around the same time, and was reminded of Jesus on the cross - when He cried out "Father, why have you forsaken me?" She said Jesus had to go through those moments of being totally alone in order to understand our aloneness (and to atone for our sins), but because of going through that we NEVER have to be totally alone! He never forsakes us.
It was such a personal, encouraging word to my heart. I have been savoring it for days. I may even feel very alone, but I'm not!! Thank you Lord! I'm so grateful for His presence even on the hardest of days.
"Be strong and courageous......He will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6
I had written about this in the update that I send out. I found out later that right around when the prayer update was going out......two of the carers were with Floyd. They were playing Matt Redman's song to Floyd about "never once did we ever walk alone."
As they played the worship song, they raised their hands in prayer. Floyd had one of the broadest smiles they had ever seen on his face, and he tried to lift both his leg and his arm in worship with them!
While they were still with him their phone dinged with the prayer update I'd just sent, and they were able to share it with Floyd. It was so very special that God was ministering the same thing to both Floyd and me. He is with us both - and He never leaves us alone! How very faithful He is!
Now that I have my new bald look, my head gets cold. I have some nice caps, but yesterday I was sitting in the warm sunshine. It felt so good on my very white head that could use a little color too! :) As I sat there, I became conscious of a roaring sound. I realized it was the ocean's roar as the tides were changing. It was so loud, so awesome, so powerful.
As I thought of the faithfulness of God's creation in the constant ebb and flow of the ocean - I could almost feel His faithfulness washing over me. His still small voice was reminding me that just as He controls the forces of nature in the seas.......He also controls my world and all that is impacting me. His faithfulness is sure and constant.
My strength has been building bit by bit this week. I'm so thankful for that. The next round is Tues. I'm grateful that many have been covering me in prayer for round two.
"Who is like you, Lord God Almighty? You, Lord, are mighty, and your faithfulness surrounds you. You rule over the surging sea; when its waves mount up, you still them." Psalm 89:8,9
"Blessed are those whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord their God. He is the Maker of heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them - He remains faithful forever." Psalm 146:5,6
God is wonderfully faithful!