Floyd's days have been quiet. He's had more time on his own, but he seems to be at peace. We continue to pray for angels to keep him company. When the carers have been with him he's alert, and responds in various ways. Many of the carers have been praying for his voice to be released. They often feel like he wants to say something. One of the carers told him she was praying that he would be able to speak a word that God has given him for the Body of Christ, and Floyd started staring at the ceiling like he was seeing something there. There's no way to know what he has on his heart. I wish we could see through his eyes!
Meanwhile my recovery from the 2 recent surgeries has been up and down. Earlier this week I found it challenging just to make it through each day. At night, when I was trying to get to sleep - I often lay in bed talking to the Lord. I either offered up petitions of our needs, or I lifted up praise and thanks to Him for His sustaining grace.
In the quietness of the night, I often listen to the ocean. One night it seemed to be "roaring" especially loud......and it kept roaring for hours, much longer than normal. A poem began to form in my thoughts.
The Ocean's Roar
The ocean is so loud tonight -
I can clearly hear it roar.
It sounds like someone’s crying out
From the deep, deep ocean floor.
Is that a cry for help I hear?
Or a moan of someone’s pain?
Or is it voices crying out
For our much needed rain?
It seems to go on endlessly,
Roaring loudly into the night.
I wonder if it will continue to roar
Until the morning’s light.
The closer I listen, and
The more I try to understand -
The more it seems I hear the words
And can tell what is being planned.
It seems as if the prayers and pleas
Are mixed with glorious praise.
The ocean floor is flooding up
It’s voice in harmony raised.
Nature cries out from the deepest deep
To worship our wonderful Lord.
As we join in, our voices raised,
We blend in one accord!
“Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, saying: ‘To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!’ Revelations 5:13
“Praise the Lord from the earth, you great sea creatures and all ocean depths.” Psalm 148:7
As the poem formed in my mind - I felt as if I was joining with creation in praying and praising our heavenly King. It was a mighty chorus!
I've had some "good" days now so I'm hoping I've turned a corner! I had my post surgery check up with my main surgeon on Monday. He feels that, in spite of some bumps along the way in recovery, I'm doing well. He also told me again how pleased he was with my big surgery, and that he thinks my prognosis is good. I was encouraged by his positivity, and told him that lots of people are praying for me.
I've often wondered what God's plan is for me on this long unexpected journey - His "assignment" so to speak. All I've known to do is to trust Him, and to be as faithful as I can with each difficult thing, each test, that comes along.
Because the Word exhorts us to be content in every situation, I've also tried to be "content" on this journey. I must say that that is easier said than done. In all honesty, I just want it to be over! And yet it's not. The 6 weeks of recovery from my 2 surgeries have been challenging, very hard! They have been some of the hardest days of this whole journey. I've been very weak, so my activities have been limited......which, translated, means lots of time to think!
It's easy to look backwards and long for things we've had before. Or I can dream about what might be ahead. And yet I find my heart being challenged that He is sufficient right here, right now. It's only in the present, right here today, that I can "learn to be content." I'm trying my best to do that. Some days it's been easy - some days it's harder than hard. But in each day I sense His grace, His help, His love.......and His hope for the future.
The situations we find ourselves in aren't mistakes - God has allowed them. And, therefore, He has good for us in the midst of them. I'm looking for the good, the "gold," in every twist and turn of this unexpected journey. God is helping me to find it! He is so faithful.
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." Philippians 4:12
"Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to him, and to which God has called him." 1 Corinthians 7:17
One early morning this week I found myself singing the song "surely the Lord is in this place." Such a profound truth - He is with me, with Floyd, with our family on each step of this journey. And He's with you on your journey too!