Floyd has had some special times with carers this week. He is attentive, responsive, sometimes emotional, peaceful, sharing his sweet smiles, and generally calm and at rest. The last few days he has been free of the chest congestion, which is so wonderful.
The last few weeks for me have been hard. Pain, weakness, and nausea after the big surgery - and my body wanting to reject the stent that had been inserted. I wondered how I would make it to July 10th when my surgery to remove the stent was set. But, I’m so grateful to the Lord that when I called the urologist to ask him if he'd consider moving my surgery date sooner he said yes! I had been praying for him to have wisdom to know the right thing to do.
So, I had my surgery on Monday and am so grateful that it all went well, and my body can now recover and strengthen before I start chemo late July.
During these past hard weeks I often struggled to just make it through the long days. I frequently called out to the Lord to help me.
I experienced what I started calling "kisses of grace." There weren't huge things that happened that helped me make it.......there were just "little touches" from Him that helped me keep going. Little "kisses" - feather light, but noticeable......just enough to keep me moving forward. A verse, a song, a thought, a note from a friend, a phrase in a book, a sense of His closeness, a prayer - simple, every day things that ministered His sweet grace.
We so often look for the big answers to prayer. During these hard weeks, I've been so grateful for the little kisses, little answers that have been "sufficient." How faithful He is!
"But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' " 2 Corinthians 12:9
"He gives us more grace." James 4:6
When we call out to Him, He will never leave us without what we need. But His answers may certainly look different than what we expected. I'm so grateful for His little kisses of grace that were just what I needed on the hard days.
In recent days I've heard of 3 groups of prisoners who read our prayer updates and pray regularly for us. I was so touched and blessed by that. I'm always amazed at where the prayer updates go, and so very grateful for all the prayers.
I continue to think that God has plans and purposes for this journey we're on beyond what we see and understand. I'm sure that persevering prayer is part of that, so it touches my heart when I hear of both friends and complete strangers that lift us to the throne. Only the Holy Spirit can encourage that breadth of prayer!
I have been blessed by a song that came out with the movie "The Shack." The song is "Keep Your Eyes on Me." It has echoed through my mind during these days when I've been so weak. In my weak and painful moments, Jesus has helped me to keep my eyes on Him and His goodness.
"I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken." Psalm 16:8
"Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how He did it. Because He never lost sight of where He was headed - that exhilarating finish in and with God - He could put up with anything along the way: cross, shame, whatever. And now He's there, in the place of honor, right alongside God." Hebrews 12:2 (The Message)
My body has been weak, but my heart, my "eyes," are constantly on Him. He is so good and so faithful.