Securely Rooted in Him

It’s been a while since I have been able to write.  After my surgery I took a really bad turn and had to be readmitted to hospital.  Honestly the photo I have used for this post is ME!  I feel empty.  I feel like something has been lost, and I feel like I’m looking for part of me that has disappeared.  The photo is so vivid.  It really describes everything I feel right now.  However, you will note that in the midst of all the emptiness and all the sand being gone and in the midst of so much that isn’t there, the one thing that is clearly there are the roots.  The roots have not disappeared.  The roots have not gone!!  The roots are strong and firm in the midst of everything else being washed away.  If you look closely at the picture literally everything around it is washed away and yet the roots are firm and secure and still there.  This is how I feel right now too!!

I have been through an unbelievable trial  –  in fact I’m still in the middle of it  –  and yet in the midst of feeling very empty in that trial I also feel very full because my roots are secure.  I can’t tell you how good that feels.  I don’t think I’d make it through the trial without those strong roots surrounding me in the midst of the emptiness and barrenness.  I’m so, so grateful.  In the midst of our relationship with the Lord this is truly what we can look like.  We can still stand, we can still be rooted because we are planted in Jesus.  We can even keep growing because our roots are deep in Him.  Hard times, difficult times don’t have to leave us barren.  We may look like it to outsiders, like we are barren but we’re not.  We’re strong, we’re firm, we’re rooted in Him because of who He is.

As of right now I have spent much of the last four and a half weeks in the hospital.  I still don’t know what’s ahead.  It’s a big question mark.  I am diligently working on eating well, working with my therapist to regain strength and doing everything on my part to rebuild but I still need some very big miracles.  One of the prayers on my heart is that I can be home for Christmas.  I would love to be in my own home, I would love to be with a few friends.  It will take some miracles in my body, it will take practical miracles and it will take a lot of the Lord’s help.  I have been so very very grateful to know that so many are praying for Floyd and me.  It has meant the world to me, to have those prayers carry me along and that so many are trusting with me for these miracles.  

Thankfully in the midst of all this Floyd is holding steady and doing ok, and God is good and He is faithful!