These past two weeks Floyd has battled another really bad chest infection. The doctor had given us a pretty grim diagnosis. But !! The infections are now gone, the fever is gone, and he is regaining strength. I'm sure it's an answer to prayer. He's been sitting in his chair. His breathing is clear, the phlegm is much less, and he has had good connections with people.
During a time of worship with Floyd, the two carers that were with him said he was staring intently at something in the room that they couldn't see. They asked him if he maybe saw Jesus or angels - and he smiled real big. I often pray that that will be the case!
As they left, they waved to him from the door and asked if he could wave back to them - which he did. It's encouraging to see every connection he makes with clear responses. I know these encourage our hearts - and we wait to see if it's part of a bigger healing God is doing in his body. Only God knows the plan He has for Floyd. While we wait to see it unfold, we are grateful for His daily care and faithfulness.
I read a quote from Sarah Young in one of her devotionals - speaking as if Jesus were talking to us. "I know exactly how much you can bear, and I set limits to your suffering. Do not multiply your trouble by projecting it into the future as if it were endless, for I can relieve or remove it at any moment. Your job is to continue trusting Me in the present, waiting for Me to provide a way out - My way and timing!"
I continue to look to Him, trust Him, waiting for His way out and His timing from this long unexpected journey we've been on! He knows how much I/we can bear. He won't give us too much! His grace continues to be sufficient - one day at a time.
"We pray that you'll have the strength to stick it out over the long haul - not the grim strength of gritting your teeth but the glory strength God gives." Colossians 1:11 The Message
Thank you, Lord, for your "glory strength!!" I could never make it on my own, but He is so very, very faithful!
"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life." Psalm 143:8
"But all who listen to me shall live in peace and safety, unafraid." Proverbs 1:33
His love, His word, His presence are so comforting and supportive. When I feel alone - fearful - uncertain.......wondering what the future holds, He is the wonderful constant. He's always there. He always enfolds me in His love. There are moments during this journey with Floyd and my chemo treatment when I feel so weak. But all I have to do is call to Him and He wonderfully meets me with all I need.
My strength is building before round 4 of my chemo, but it's amazing how quickly it disappears when I do a few little things. I'm so grateful for the "good" days.
"You are to cling to the Lord your God, just as you have done to this day." Joshua 23:8
"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10
I was thinking this week when my strength seemed to disappear so quickly - when I get tired, weak, weary on the long journey.......and I feel like I can't keep holding on......HE holds me!! He will never let go. His grip is secure. He is always strong. He doesn't grow weary. I can even relax in my weakness knowing that He is clinging to me, even as I try to cling to Him.
Thank you Lord!! What a sweet assurance that is.