God Room

I shared this past Tuesday about the "miracle of the rain" in 1985 in Randers, Denmark.  Being reminded of that stirred my faith to trust God for new miracles.

A few days ago, a friend reminded me of a message of Floyd's - "Trusting God for the Impossible."  I decided to listen to it.  It stirred my faith once again - and it touched my heart as Floyd shared some sweet affirmations about me.  It was a precious birthday gift to me.

One of the things Floyd talked about is "God Room."  It's when we do everything possible, and then we step into the area where things are impossible.....God Room.  We have to leave things in His hands - trusting Him to do what we can't.  I feel like there are several things in my life in the area of God Room.  I need to stir my faith to trust God for things I can't do - things that are impossible.

"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."  Matthew 19:26

"Is anything too hard for the Lord?"  Genesis 18:14

"Almighty Lord, you made heaven and earth by your great strength and powerful arm.  Nothing is too hard for you."  Jeremiah 32:17

"I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted."  Job 42:2

"With man it is impossible, but not with God.  For all things are possible with God."  Mark 10:27

"All things are possible for one who believes."  Mark 19:23

"If God is for us, who can be against us?"  Romans 8:31

"Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen."  Ephesians 3:20

I've seen many miracles in my life, and I long to see more.  I have fresh faith stirred in my heart to believe God for them.  I'm waiting.  God is so awesome!

Floyd's message - and many others - are on the All Nations International website in the Founders Library.  There are audio and video teachings, books, and news.  It's a work in progress with more and more things being continually added to it. 

To find Floyd’s message click on All Nations in the menu bar where you will find the drop down link for Founders' Library. 

Miracle Working God

A relative was recently in Randers, Denmark where we had a GO Festival in 1985.  Many initiatives and callings came out of that time.  While visiting there people were recalling the "miracle" during the Festival.  Luis Palau was scheduled to speak in an outdoor setting to 9000 people in attendance.  A pouring rain fell over the city - but not over the outdoor stadium.  Someone showed our relative a newspaper clipping from 1985 with a photo of the dry stadium and the rain coming down around it.  I had totally forgotten about this until our relative reminded me.  All these years later, it encouraged me again....and I thanked the Lord for the miracle.  It was such a wonderful testimony!  It increased my faith to pray for new miracles.

I'm learning that grief is an unpredictable thing....and it seemingly never goes away.  It's been over 3 years since Floyd passed away - and it was 5+ years before that when I "lost" him to the sickness that enveloped him.  I've grieved for a long time.  And yet, sometimes grief hits my heart so hard that it seems like it all just happened.

Special days (like his recent birthday), an unexpected memory, a lonely moment, just about anything.....can cause the grief to well up.  I've known Floyd since I was 16 years old.  He's been the love of my life and my best friend.  I still feel like part of me is missing.  I thought I would "get over" grief after a while, but I think it will be with me for a long time - maybe for the rest of my life.

In the midst of these recent tender days, there was a photo of Floyd in an All Nations International newsletter.  I love the photo and the quote.  I've posted it above.

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."  Psalm 34:18

"Jesus wept."  John 11:35

When Lazarus died, Jesus wept.  He grieved over His friend - before He raised him from the dead.  Jesus understands our grief.  I find that a comfort.  He faced everything we face, and comforts us when we go through life's difficulties.  I'm so grateful for that!

An Undeserved Miracle

Last week I posted about my two special days recently - the "anniversary" of Floyd's passing and our wedding anniversary.  Both days were special.  One was tender and one was sweet.  On both days I sensed the Lord's comfort and presence in a precious way.

Now - the month of June is special to me!  Ten years ago this month I was first diagnosed with ovarian cancer.  It's been a rough journey - 8 surgeries, 4 types of chemo treatment, radiation therapy, various physical therapies, and multiple homeopathic/natural treatments/supplements (and all while making sure Floyd was well cared for during his 5+ years in the hospital).  I constantly research different treatments.  I've found several things very helpful - especially in treating symptoms - and have shared with my doctors things that they have been able to recommend to other patients.

My first oncologist had a somewhat negative viewpoint.  She "only believed in medicine" and wasn't open to any supplementary treatments.  She said in her experience some patients survived a few months, some a year/maybe two, and the longest one survived 5 years.  I felt like she had already given up on me.  I was praying and doing my best to survive - especially so that I could care for Floyd.  I finally realized I needed to find another oncologist.

The doctor I've been with now for about 7 years is wonderful!  She is "open" to anything that I find helpful.  She is supportive, she listens, she's available to me anytime, and she's very kind.  She says she thinks the most important things are for her cancer patients to have hope - and to be involved in their own care.....so my researching and finding things that have helped me is, in her mind, very important!!  I love her attitude.  She calls me a "miracle" with having survived so many years.  I agree with her - it's only by God's grace that I'm still alive.  I'm so grateful.

I realize that every day is a precious gift from the Lord.  I celebrate each day - and have no idea how many more I'll have......I hope it's a lot!  I have things I still want to do.

"I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!"  Psalm 27:13

"The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows those who take refuge in Him."  Nahum 1:7

"Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life."  Psalm 23:6

"We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him."  Romans 8:28

"I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11

I share that verse from Jeremiah often because it means so much to me.  The truth of it is powerful.  Even when we don't fully understand - His plans for us are good.....they give hope and a future.

These are just a very few of the verses that have meant a lot to me on this ten year journey.  The Word is full of God's promises, comfort, love, and care for us.

As I walk through this 10 year anniversary month, I find myself spontaneously thanking the Lord for His goodness to me!  I don't deserve this "miracle," but I'm very grateful.