Don't Be Anxious

Last week I wrote about the verse "Be still and know that I am God."  I included a chart that breaks down the verse.  I really try to live by that verse and all that it means.

BUT sometimes I worry.  I don't want to worry.  It takes so much energy, and distracts me from my focus on the Lord.  But I do catch myself worrying.  The other night I couldn't sleep.  In the midst of being wide awake, I started worrying about a pain I had.  In no time at all that worry was spiraling out of control.  I had to very consciously rein in my thoughts, and focus on the Lord.  I needed to be still and remember that God is with me!!  If I'm focusing on the Lord, there's no room for worry!

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?  Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?''  Luke 12:25,26

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."  Matthew 6:34

"When I am afraid, I put my trust in You."  Psalm 56:3

"Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me."  Psalm 23:4

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God."  Philippians 4:6

I  don't want to be a "worry wart" like we sometimes called people when I was growing up.  I want my focus always and continually to be on our wonderful Lord!

Finding a Way Around

In recent years with all we've faced and gone through, I have seen so many answers to prayer.  It has been very special and encouraging.  I'm grateful for each answer!

But there have been many things I've prayed for where I didn't see answers.  I trust God.  I trust His wisdom to know what's best.  But sometimes I've wondered about the unanswered prayers - the obstacles I asked God to remove.....but they didn't budge.  They remained bright as day - huge and unmoving.

At some point I came across this quote - "If God doesn't remove an obstacle, He'll help you find a way around it."  And that's what happened.  He helped me deal with the obstacles.  He showed me how to overcome the problem that they caused.  He led me in directions where the obstacle wasn't on the path.

I guess I still have questions that I wonder about, but I'll have all of eternity to ask the Lord about them.  The thing that is foremost in my mind is that God helped me deal with the obstacle even when it wasn't removed.  How awesome is that?!

"When they looked up, they saw that the stone had been rolled away."  Mark 16:4 

"We triumph even in our troubles, knowing that trouble produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope - a hope which never disappoints us, since God's love floods our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us."  Romans 5:3,5

"Know Him in all your paths, and He will keep your ways straight."  Proverbs 3:6

"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.  And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."  James 1:2-4

"Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me.  But He said to me, 'my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."  2 Corinthians 12:8-10 

"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."  Philippians 4:13

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God."  Philippians 4:6

"The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent."  Exodus 14:14

I know there will continue to be obstacles on my journey, but I also know God will remove them or help me find a way around them.  That gives me such a sense of peace on the journey.  How faithful and good He is!

Through the years we have been blessed to work with some wonderful people - to be part of some inspiring groups - and live in interesting places.  One of the things we've learned is to "savor" each one of those.  You never know when things will change, people move on, or even God moving us on.

We lived in Holland for 18 years.  I thought we would continue living there for many, many years.  And suddenly! - everything changed and we were leaving.  We loved living there, loved the Dutch culture and people.  We felt very much at home and wanted to stay.  But God was leading a different way.  I'm so glad that we had "savored" every day there.  The years in Holland went with us in our hearts.

Our years in Kabul, Afghanistan were very different.  It was not an easy place to live!  So many challenges.  And yet, I loved living there and "savored" all the rich experiences.  We were there when the king was overthrown - an important moment in the history of the country.  We were there when the Christian church (for foreigners) was torn down - a sad and historic day.  The government had heard there was an "underground church."  So they tore the building down and dug deep into the ground looking for that church.  I have a piece of the marble floor of the church.  Every time I look at it, it reminds me to pray for that country that is going through such hard times - especially the women and children. 

If I counted right, we have lived in 13 different places, and worked with hundreds and hundreds of wonderful people.  Not everything was easy and smooth going, but, none the less, we savored each place, each relationship, each person.  I feel so blessed to have had the life we've had......"savoring" each minute.  I thank the Lord for how He's led us all our years.

"Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others."  Philippians 2:4

"Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God's grace in its various forms."  1 Peter 4:10

"A friend loves at all times."  Proverbs 17:17 

"God is love.  In this the love of God was made manifest among us, so that we might live through Him.  In this is love, not that we loved God but that He loved us and sent His son to be the expiation for our sins.  Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another."  1 John 4:8-11

"Share each other's burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2

Our greatest wealth is not measured in terms of riches but relationships.  We've never had a lot of money, but we are exceedingly rich in the gift of people in our lives. 

At Rest in Him

Last Friday I wrote about worry.  Well, I'm certainly getting a fresh opportunity to respond the right way in a worrying situation!  After a consult with my oncologist this week, my mind and emotions were bombarded with anxiety.  I sat down and tried to separate every anxious thought and bring it to the Lord.  I tried to push the anxiety to the side and concentrate on God's goodness and faithfulness.  I spoke out that He is my refuge!  He is always with me and He holds my right hand.

I admit that this was somewhat of a battle.  Worry/anxiety kept poking its head up.  I would come to a place of peace and then before long I needed to claim that peace all over again.  I find it helpful when a worry pops up to immediately speak out a promise to counteract the worry from the Word.  And to keep speaking it out until I feel it's "solid" in my heart.

I have some challenges in the days ahead, so I'm going to need to keep standing on His promises! 

"Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.  You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory....But as for me, it is good to be near God.  I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds."  Psalm 73:23, 24, 28

"The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms."  Deuteronomy 33:27

"Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.' " Matthew 19:26

"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are."  Hebrews 4:15

I love that last verse.  Jesus understands!!!  When I cry out to Him about what I'm going through, I can just picture Him saying - "It's okay.  I understand.  I'll help you through this.  You're not alone."  What comfort and strength that gives me. 

I continued all through the week to take my anxieties to the Lord - over and over.  As I went to bed one night, I gave the burden of them to the Lord again.

I had a wonderfully, deep night of sleep.  Sleep is so healing and restorative.  When I woke the next morning, the burden was gone!!  Completely!  No anxiety.  I felt encapsulated in peace.  The contrast to the previous day was like night and day.  It was incredible!  I'm so grateful for God taking that burden from my heart, and washing over me with His spirit of peace.

Also as I walked through the week, I was reminded by the Lord of how important it is to "rest in Him."  That can be a lot easier said than done, but it is possible.  I kept speaking out my love, my faith, my confidence, my hope, my trust in the Lord.  The more I spoke it out - the stronger it became in my heart and in my emotions.  I could take a deep breath and rest in His loving arms.  I knew He was carrying me.  On hard days, I missed Floyd not being here to help me......but the Lord reminded me that He's my husband in Floyd's absence.  That's a powerful thought, and I sensed the Lord meeting me in special ways.  I experienced a deep "rest."

"Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, that hovers over its young, He spread His wings and caught them, He carried them on His pinions."  Deuteronomy 32:11

"Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; for the Lord God is my strength and song, and He has become my salvation."  Isaiah 12:2

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."  Isaiah 41:10

"How priceless is your unfailing love!  Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings."  Psalm 36:7

"Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge."  Psalm 62:8

I poured out my heart to Him - over and over this week.  He met me!  He has been my refuge.  He is so good, so faithful, so present when we need Him.  I feel "at rest" in Him.

We Can't Be Passive

My heart is aligned to love and trust the Lord.  I know I'm in His hands, and that He is watching over me.  I talk to Him all the time, and feel His closeness. 

So it's surprising to me when something happens physically that is concerning - that my first response is to be anxious.  I guess it's human nature, but I would love it to be otherwise.  I've just had that happen.  I had to rein in my thoughts and emotions and bring them to the Lord.  He wonderfully restored me to a place of peace.   

This fresh experience reminded me of how important it is to control our thoughts.  They can so easily run away from us if we're not careful.  I find it important to bring them to the Lord continually.  Meditating on His goodness and speaking out promises from the Word is a big help.  Standing against the lies of the enemy is crucial.  We can't be passive. 

"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because He trusts in you."  Isaiah 26:3

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."  Philippians 4:8

"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things."  Colossians 3:2

"We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."  2 Corinthians 10:5

"For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he."  Proverbs 23:7

Our thoughts are powerful.  They shape who were are, even who we will become.  They influence our physical well-being.  They impact our emotions.  The Bible makes it clear how important our thoughts are.  That's why we need to continually bring them to the Lord.  We need to counteract lies with truth.  I'm still learning how to do this!

I received a "gift" this week that has so blessed me.  I want to tell you about it because I think it's a gift to all of us who pray for miracles!  I had a check-up with my oncologist this week.  She told me she is very puzzled.  Two years ago when I had the big surgery and spent weeks in the hospital, she had explained to me that there were 2 problems that they couldn't fix.  Over time, the expectation was that those problems would cause even bigger problems and complications.  The outlook was grim.

When she examined me this week, she found the problems were gone!  She couldn't explain it.  She said there's no way that could happen.  She kept saying she was puzzled, and couldn't figure it out.  I told her that "maybe it was an answer to all the prayers people have prayed for me."  She said "maybe so, maybe so."

I came home rejoicing!  I still have cancer and an un-operable tumor, but this "miracle" gave me renewed courage to pray for more healing miracles.  According to my doctor, something like this doesn't just happen.  This has been a wonderful, special, encouraging Christmas gift!!! 

"He fulfills the desires of those who fear Him; He hears their cry and saves them."  Psalm 145:19

I'm rejoicing this week in Christ's birth - Emmanuel, God with us, coming to earth!  My heart is full of worship for this wonderful gift to mankind.  In spite of our sin, our rebellion, and our weakness God sent His Son to save us.  Thank you Jesus for coming.

"Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and they shall call his name Emmanuel (which means, God with us)."  Matthew 1:23 

I hope you have a wonderful, Merry Christmas!  I pray your heart will be full of worship for Emmanuel.  May you know afresh that He's with you!!